Over the past few days,
I have found myself at a complete loss of words.
Friday’s Tragedy at Sandy Hook Elementary, shook me, like it did most of you.
I have purposely avoided the TV, and internet to protect my very sensitive self
from reading and hearing the details of this horrific tragedy.
Because, honestly, I just can’t handle it.
My prayers are with each child, teacher/educator, family, & law enforcement official
in the center of it all.
When the thoughts of how and why started to enter my head,
I remind myself of an experience I had as a little girl.
After waking up from a bad dream, I remember going into my parents room late one night
to wake my mom. In an effort to help me go back to bed, My Mom told me
to think about and focus on a time when I was happy, and that would help me get back to sleep.
And that night I laid in bed focusing my thoughts on a family trip to Disneyland.
Sure enough, memories of Mickey Mouse, Tinkerbell flying through the sky, and Splash Mountain, helped me fall back to sleep.
Well, I am no longer that little girl anymore, however, I find myself using that same
little trick my mom taught me, to keep from thinking about scary things.
And what happened of Friday was VERY scary.
So the past few days, I have been focusing my thoughts on remembering what we did
this past weekend.
As we drove North of the Arizona dessert we live in,
to spend some time as a family and hopefully create a new Christmas memory.
We dressed in our warmest jammies, and boarded the Polar Express.
Nixon was THRILLED to meet Santa, get his ticket punched by the Conductor, Sip Hot Cocoa,
Sing Christmas Songs at the top of his lungs, all while wearing some new Snowman Jammies.
And THEN the next morning, we woke up early to a Winter Wonderland.
You see, Nixon had NEVER seen Snow before, and I (a true Arizona girl)
had never seen it actually Snow before.
And that morning, he and I got to experience a first together.
Several inches of snow on the ground, and as it snowed, We Made Snow Angels, threw Snowballs, and built our VERY first Snowman!
It was as Nixon declared “The BEST Day EVER”
The Cherry on Top, was finding out that Nixon is going to be Big Brother
to the Sweet Little BOY, that I have been carrying for the past 18 Weeks.
We are BEYOND thrilled to have another BOY join our family!
These are the things I am going to focus on, when I feel like I just can’t hear anymore.
And I and hope you will as well continue to keep praying for Newton.
“In this hour of great sorrow we pray the Spirit of our Father in Heaven will provide comfort and peace to all.” The First Presidency, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints